Day 10: Good job. You created a job.

The Grind-ies are the gravelly, down and dirty, mentally painful, zero-to-something thinking, learning, and producing that it takes to create something of your own. The Grind-ies Challenge is a 30 day pursuit to enter the Grind-ies mindset on a regular basis and document the experience.

I don't have a lot of thoughts today. I kinda, not really, took it easier today.

I didn't work myself to the bone like in past days, but I did continue with the challenge.

I went to work like it was a job.

Yikes. What?

Did the Grind-ies create a job for me?

I can't get over the fact that before the Grind-ies I aggressively worked on projects that had large upsides, but no way of getting to the world. Now, I'm bidding on freelance gigs that I could actually get, and I'd see an immediate return.

Was I working on large-scale projects to avoid something?

Are you doing that?

Did I just project?

Sometimes self-reflection sucks. Peeling back unneeded layers and unhinging blocks is life-changing but it sucks to admit that I've done so many resistance-avoiding things.

I think my over-ambition was a form of resistance.

It was. It totally was.

Sure, I'll still write books, but if freelancing becomes my base, I'll have a life. Serving tables at night to work on projects that pay my LLC but not me, has been a test of my persistence.

I'm kind of glad balance is on the horizon. Sigh.

Do what you love and the money will follow. Work your ass off for years and things will balance out as you grow into who you're supposed to become.

Day 10

Time in the Grind-ies: 4 hours, 17 minutes

Projects: proposals, work-for-hire job, organizing my project samples, learning about freelancing

How I felt afterward: This answer is loaded. I miss my personal projects but I know I'm serving the integrity of the Grind-ies by doing this work. It's a new feeling.

Day 11

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