Grind-ies Day 4
The Grind-ies are the gravelly, down and dirty, mentally painful, zero-to-something thinking, learning, and producing that it takes to create something of your own. The Grind-ies Challenge is a 30 day pursuit to enter the Grind-ies mindset on a regular basis and document the experience.
A work-for-hire gig came in last night; I entered the Grind-ies and jumped on it first thing today.
There was significantly less resistance.
Was it easier because I was organizing someone else's work? Or because I was growing stronger to the pull of distraction?
I almost considered not counting it as part of my time in the
Then I dove into my personal projects and felt equally in control of my focus.
Could immunity to resistance be forming? Did it only take 4 days?
I sprang into my projects and strong ideas came quickly. I consulted my mind (in the form of a question to myself) about what I needed and the answer came almost instantly. A good answer, too.
I was startled.
The only reason I'm out of the Grind-ies now is because of routine. I might slip back in after I post this and eat dinner.
Can I really be developing a habit to something as strong as resistance this rapidly? The word "deliberate" comes to mind.
Humblebrag—I've written 4 books. I entered the Grind-ies for all of them, but it felt tougher than this. Could willful focus be making it less painful? Is it because I'm planning my day around it? No. Done that before. Is it because I'm priming my brain with reading each day? Nope. Done that before. Is it because I'm committed to what it takes and I'm excited about what the Grind-ies brings? We're getting hotter.
I accept this process. I trust this process. Bingo. Fuckin' trust. It's bringing ease, comfort, even pleasure. I've trusted my aptitude before and definitely the universe, but the mindset? That's new. This mindset, when trusted enough, builds careers and that gives me butterflies.
Knowing I can go into the Grind-ies and create at anytime gives me confidence to promote and sell programs. "It will do this, this, and this. I guarantee it or it's free." Whoa. I feel that from a new place. All from forming a habit? Dude. Sacagowea.
Is confidence in your own material really that easy? Years and years and all it took was trust in a mindset towards resistance? Wait. This pledge to the mindset shifted my self-worth. There it is. Before this vow, I felt guilty and unworthy and needed resistance to justify that feeling. Like on Day 1 of the challenge when my gut said, "How will you deal with all the shitty things you've done in your life?"
The connection to the mindset forced resistance to move aside which purged any trapped feelings of not deserving success.
There it is. That's all it took?
Day 4 Time in the Grind-ies: 3 hours, 11 minutes
Projects: work-for-hire gig, writing and researching teambuilding program, organizing content for a new blog, reading about business models
How I felt afterward: After projects, I felt peaceful and ready for more. After I wrote this blog, I felt silly about how easy it was to remove the unworthiness that had been in my way.